Ramblings#
It has been a long time since I wrote anything; the last time I wrote an article was in June. My motivation to write has been decreasing, and although I record my learning content every day, I don't want to share simple things like reproducing a vulnerability, solving a CTF problem, or using a tool. I feel these lack technical depth, especially when I see what other experts write, which is very professional, leaving me somewhat demotivated.
Another reason is that work has been too busy. Many colleagues have left, and the company is not hiring but instead piling their work onto us, so my workload has increased, leaving little time to write.
Regarding work, everyone is saying the overall environment is bad, layoffs are happening, and jobs are hard to find. It seems like everyone has a unified stance; the cold winds of winter seem to have blown through everyone. What I can't understand is that the country emphasizes cybersecurity, yet the current state of the security industry is contrary to this emphasis. Both those who are making money and those who aren't say the environment is bad, and no one knows when this situation will end.
I have been pua'd by ==leaders== twice now, and I really need to adjust my mindset, improve myself, and not be affected.
Now, in my spare time from work, I try to read more theoretical articles to enhance my knowledge base. I feel it's time to change careers, improve my communication skills, learn how to tell stories, and how to make others understand using my professional knowledge.
Writing this ramble has become quite laborious, just like my communication; there is too much I want to express, yet I find it hard to articulate or write it down. I think this is the problem; I can't think too much and do too little. Practicing more and speaking more can actually lead to proficiency.
Work hard, strive.